no tittle

started worry about my study.. feel thr is always insuffiecient time for me..
always think wanna study hard at the beginning of the new sem.. but finally done ntg..
last minutes to study and sit for exam..
thn the results also .... .... ....

y i am study here? for myself? my parents? emm... both?
fo future.. as well as my parents...
my parents have me only one and one daughter.. they used to put all their hope toward me..
im not a clever person.. i have to revise for many many times to understand a topic.. i have to put a lot of effort if compare to other person.. that's what i think for myself..

stressful~ pressure~ all gone inside my head..
dunno wat happened to me in this sem.. i cant concentrate like last time for my study..

my ideal place to study.. my small and little warm room..
i used to study and revise at here before every examination.. i feel calm and comfortable at here.. and i enjoy my study here~
but..
this is no longer that i can study at my little room as im not always go bek to my hse due to certain reason.. the place that belong to me is not belong to me anymore.. i have no home.. no more...... although thr is still a home...

who is reali understand me??
dad.. i noe i always did alot of things that make u worry and sad..
i like to hang out with frens every weekend is because.. i dun like to stay at hse that is not familiar to me.. i even shy to walk downstairs.. as i noe... this is not my hse.. i scare i will disturb them..
and u always scold me that i dunwan to take my meal..
but.. thr is really ntg to eat.. and.. i duno what should i eat if u buy for me.. so i jz decided to.. not to eat... for my brunch..
sorry for that..
but i swear.. dad.. i really will try my best at my study..


try try try try try trying.....
as for the promise for.... u.... and mum..... as well as.. . myself.....


[poison]