huhu~

duNno wat problem with facebook.. cannot log in.. may be updating something??

bored without facebook~ >.<

Gonna write something here to get rid of the boredom..

what to write? Emm~

still left two days.. will move to the year of 2011.. time flies..

what i have done in this year? thinking back......................

i graduated from Utar.. and pursuing my study at Sun U..

and i do miss my house mates and school mates all the time..

i enjoyed the study life in Utar much more if compared with Sun U.. stressful environment in Sun u.. haha.. but still.. i appreciate the lecturer as well as the knowledge that i am learning from here..

hope that i will achieve my target in a brand new year

and my hair grow longer~ =.=''

pass pass pass all the final exam~!!! =)

心淡。。

冬至到圣诞。。 。

家里没有人。。 大家都有都去庆祝了吧。。

这几天都一个人对着电脑。。无聊的过每一天。。

在这温馨的季节里。。 显得特别寂寞。。

就这样对着电脑。。 看着时间一秒一秒的过去。。

别人都看得懂我的寂寞。。 忧伤。。

你真的不懂吗？

就算你回来了，难道你不会想和我过圣诞节吗？

再问自己。。

为什么关心我的人不是你。。 为什么安慰我的人不是你。。 在电话逗我笑的不是你。。

好几次了。。 心情坏了又好起来。。 安慰自己。。

可是。。 最终。。 就连自己也可怜了自己起来。。

眼泪也不知不觉落到我的嘴角。。 很咸很咸。。

我想不到什么可以安慰自己的话了。。

或许。。 等我爱上寂寞时。。 我就可以不用那么痛了。。

累了。。 心也淡了。。

圣诞节就快过完了。。 祝大家圣诞快乐。。 幸福。。 得到你们要的关心~ =）

fine here~ =)

dear friend,

when u feel like u are missing your friend..

u probably just have to take up your phone and text him or her with a "hi~ how u doing there?" within 1 minute..

Nope.. for me.. it's not easier at that..

how u doing there.. gonna replace with my whisper : hope u will fine there..

yea.. hope u will be fine there~ and happy Christmas eve.

yours sincerely,

=)

tortoise and turtle~ ♥

it's cute~ ♥

冬至节快乐

天气冷冷的。。 好想有一碗热热的汤圆。。
今天是冬至。。 先祝大家冬至快乐。。
虽然说今年可能没有汤圆吃~

本人是不爱汤圆。。 但喜欢冬至的气氛。。
大家一起揉着软软的面团。。 有说有笑。。 是很温馨的。。
把汤圆做成各种形状。。 是最好玩的地方。。

今年可没这个气氛了。。 一个人在家里。。
对着电脑。。 面子书里好多好多汤圆的图片还有祝福。。
怎么有点忧伤了起来。。 懊恼~
觉得自己在这个佳节更显得寂寞。。
没关系啦。。 这几年来。。 这些感觉都我都不陌生。。 早已习惯了吧。。

祝大家冬至节快乐^^

fee fee~

hope that there is a toffee nut lattee in front of me >.<

addicted to it~ ♥

优。。

心情很优。。 但说不上为什么。。
夜深了。。 是睏了。。 但还不想睡。。
喜欢酱冷冷的天气。。 静静的夜晚。。

带点感冒的我。。
上了面子书。。 也上了微搏。。
再来就是想在这写写东西。。

可是。。 就是不能表达我的心情。。
我想一个人出去走走。。 一个人去静静。。 想东西。。
躺在海边看星星。。 然后睡着。。。。

hello kitty mug~

today, i saw a mug when hanging around ts..
hello kitty shape with a pink color ribbon..
i attracted by the outlook at 1st.. it's big and cute..

but some feeling comes to me when i hold it in order have a closer look at the mug..
my memories..

still remember by the time when i am around 7-9 years old.. i have a big and yellow tweety bird shape cup.. jz look alike as the hello kitty mug..
the mug has brought me back to the past.. to the memories that i have almost forgot..
my childhood life.. my old home.. my family.. my neighbor.. how was my life when i am small..
it was happy and cheerful.. and i noe i will never have that again..
i had thrown the tweety bird cup and i dunno the reason why..

today..

the hello kitty mug is placed on my table..
where i not only bought back the mug.. but also memories~♥

disappointment =>

Izit when the moment we get used of something.. we will never expecting more..
never expecting more.. Bcoz.. afraid of disappointment..

when come to the time i dun care, expect, and hope for it..
mean that.. i already get used of it.. and eventually.. disappointed on it..

i think i will never expecting never demanding again..
im living in the world that protecting myself.. there is no fairy tale in this world..
dun wanna take those hurt and disappointment anymore =>

everything will be alright ~ ♥

Sleepless night..
feel like wanna write something.. but dunno what to write..

ermm..
my life? simple.. but i feel that all the things are changing incrementally..
changes on myself as well as the people around me..
sometimes may not even realize those changes.. but when the time i realized i will quite shock or may be suprise about it..
i duno whether these changes are positive or negative..

as for myself.. my perception regarding something has change..
some principles..where i think i will never change it throughout my life..
i put down the principle that i uphold for a long time.. compromise with the situation that i face..
It's not bad actually..
dun b stubborn.. dun make life difficult.. make it simple.. u will finally found that.. u r the person that can ultimately make yourself happy.. not mainly because of other people or things.. it's just based on how u think.. in simple, think positively~ ♥

since small.. i have a lot of -ve thinking in my mind..
i like to think a lot.. a lot means really a lot.. this make me cant really make decision on a simple things..
i have a low low confident.. even now also same..
rarely to speak up in front of people.. rarely show what i want.. until i not realize that i actually have the right to show it when someone told me that.. as i already get used of it..

i wonder can i really survive in the real world when the time i finish my study and looking for a job.. >.<
may be can lo~ hehe think +vely ma.. =P
as i said.. everything will be alright~ ♥
it's just the matter of time..

worry

what am i worry actually?

frustrated~

why u just cant understand my situation?

why u just shout everything out from your mouth without considering my feelings?

do u think all the thing is within my control?

do u think i want it to be like that?

all these years.. i am reluctant to open my mouth..

do u think i am happy?

u just talk talk talk shout shout shout without analyzing the things that i have told u..

so? what i gonna do?

i better shut my mouth.. explaining just to make the situation worst..

my conscience try to persuade myself and talk with you and improve the relationship between us..

but u always make me frustrated make me down..

make me feel wanna cry.. u misunderstood me..

u shout again without knowing my situation..

at the end.. all the things back to square one..

i really feel lazy to explain and i don't think communicate can make the situation going smoothly..

22 years down to the road.. people wondering why i didn't talk with u.. weird~

and i think.. this is the reason why......

我很好那么你呢？

在某处。。 得知你的消息。。 知道你过得很好。。

心里也觉得很开心。。

当初的选择。。 不会再有遗憾了。。

也释怀了。。

我们都要幸福~ =>

谁。。

最近。。 总搞不懂我是谁。。
我好像不是原来的那个我了。。
我想要的。。 并不会一定得到。。

我也振作不起来。。 告诉自己该怎么办。。
也丧失了我的原则。。
为了什么而生存。。 我真的不懂。。 得过且过。。

天空还是带点灰。。 彩虹还没出现。。
好想找回自己。。找回属于自己悬着彩虹的那一片天空。。

P3-ing~

arghh~ my brain cant function well..
need such a long time to absorb.. digest and memorize..
progress test is killing me~

today's blog

why taking 3 paper seems like more than i taking 5papers in degree..
i really dun have enuf time to do my revision..
sometimes attend class on the morning.. but reach home already 11pm++..
feel wanna take out notes to study.. but i dun have the energy anymore..

luckly p2A class over alr.. just left 1day for nite class..
next week we got progress test.. i duno i manage to finish study all or not.. @@
dunwan to think it le wuwuwu~

by the way.. i learn a lot when study here..
i finally understand the reason for all those adjustment for the account.. hahaha~
and the accounting standard P2.. the way that our lecture teach is so different.. and ease to understand.. however.. this subject is really hard and have a lot thing to memorize.. and now i havent start memorize even 1 standard.. cham le cham le~

really hope homa suling nyen ping come and study together with me @@
so miss those time when we study together.. and got ppl to teach me also.. =>
they alr got their own journey own life.. take k frenz~ must miss me too ^^

panda eyes @@

recently...

altot very tired but duno why when i get into the bed always feel hard to sleep

help me~

i got an big panda eyes @@

ugly me~!

huhu~

jz bek from class.. phiew~
tired mind tired body.. so long nvr update this blog alr..

my life... still the same.. study study n study...
but it wont be so relax anymore..
but i think.. better than work? haha..

dunno~ hmm..
jz hope can pass all the exam and get the qualification as soon as possible.. if possible =>

lazy~

im lazy lazy lazy lazy..

super super lazy~

lazy lazy lazy....

i am lazy bug~ =.=!!

hate u~!

i...

hate the way u talk to me

hate the attitude u towards me

hate we were being too friend

hate the situation right now

i hate u~!

简简单单。。

只是简简单单的爱过。。 我还是我。。 简简单单的伤过。。 就不算白活。。

不知为何最近很爱着首歌。。 虽然听了会有些感伤。。
每一首歌。。 都有属于自己的回忆。。 不管美不美。。
都会很怀念。。

简简单单的爱过。。

从前。。 以为爱真的可以很简单。。可以很洒脱。。
可是被换来的。。 是一句花心。。
可能。。 当时。。 我还没真心爱上一个人吧。。

简简单单的伤过。。

伤? 有吧。。 至少还在我心里留下浅浅一道伤痕。。
知道当时自己的任性。。 伤了别人。。
后悔。。 内疚。。 一一浮现。。


我还是我。。

只是。。 少了当时的任性吧。。
人总会随着身边的人。。 事。。 物。。 而改变吧。。
我学会珍惜。。谅解。。

至于相不相信爱。。 我还不能完全的相信。。
怕被伤害吧。。 我很鸵鸟。。
所听的。。 看的。。 爱。。 都让我觉得。。 很复杂。。 很害怕。。

我要的其实只是简简单单。。

说真的。。

说真的。。 我很懒惰。。
说真的。。 我什么都不想做。。
说真的。。 我什么都不想理。。
说真的。。 我很想静静地。。

说真的。。 我很想家。。。

开学了~

是时候开学了。。 一个星期的假期。。。
超懒惰滴~
还是在假期的心情。。

虽然没有很多朋友的陪伴。。 是和家人和亲戚。。
可是也觉得蛮不错的。。

再想。。
就算朋友都一个一个远去了。。 身边还有亲戚们。。 就像是朋友。。
有什么事情。。 都可以找他们。。
这也是他们和我说的。。
蛮感动的。。

还有几个月。。 我就得告别这里的生活。。
也是我人生中的转折点吧。。
要将就？？ 还是要往自己的方向？？
我还没有想通。。

很压力~
我不想让他们失望。。
但是。。 那并不是我想要的。。。

热热的新年~

新年快乐~

今年的新年只可以用一个字形容。。 热~~~
超热滴~ 汗啊~ @@

现在的我身在大姨家。。
小的都在上网。。 大的就在打麻将~
没有什么事情做。。就上上网~
闷呃~

一年就将过去了。。
去年的新年。。 会过得比较充实吧。。 有喝不完的茶。。
今年。。 不懂勒。。
朋友都少联络了。。 还有老爸也投诉我整天出去了。。 咳~

去年。。 好像经历了很多事情。。
就觉得。。 好像一瞬间长大了。。也觉得。。 是时候长大了吧。。
不能在任性了。。

长大。。 真的很难。。
现在的我。。 还在适应期当中。。 其实很不想长大的。。

突然间领悟了很多东西。。知道后很错愕。。有些很难过。。
可是经过冷静过后。。 可以看开了。。
久而久之。。 已经习惯了。。 不会这么难过的。。
活在童话世界的我。。 曾以为事情都会像童话故事那么美好。。 可是。。
好像并不是那么一回事。。
或许。。 故事还没到结局。。 我不能将早就下定论。。
我还是有那么一点相信。。 世界是美好的。。

这是我的执著。。 还是无知？ 呵呵。。

热热的新年快乐~~

Zzz... sleepy day...

today... just a normal day..

keep sleep nia... feel lazy also...

dindnt attend classess..

better like that.. dun ned to think so much... lolx...

few more days CNY...

actually not very excited bout it...

coz i think this year will be a boring CNY for me..

happy CNY everyone^^

??

sien sienz sienz~ finding information in mCD now...

emm... wanna write something here.. to someone...

but dunno how to start...

haizxx... ntG le...

i shouldnt voice up ba.. coz...

im not him... i duno how hurt he is...

but hope he will fine...

2o10 ~

happy new year~ ^^


although tis year i cant cele with all my hometown frens like last year i did..
but.. this time i can cele with my classmate+hsemates+jimui makcikling and yp... and sure the fats fats guai junjunkai & my two biaomeiS cartoon ling and qiumeimei.. and also the zu ba jie.. haha..


we celebrate at 1u as there have a 2010 countdown concert..
but when the time we reached thr already 1130 le.. crowded thr & hot .. wuwu..
sweat alot.. makcik ling and yp alr run into the crowded & move forward to the stage le.. geng~!
i didnt follow them coz i dislike sweating..
fats fats guai biaomeis zu ba jie and me just stay bside..

12.00am~!!! happy new year...
fireworks~~~~
it was awesome... its seem like the fireworks can take the problems away from people by giving new hope and luck.. nice ~

we took some photo b4 we leaving 1u..

2010~ ugly me >.<

after count down we yumcha at station 1 and went to genting le..the 1st place we go in was casino.. 21st year olds can go in casino already.. and this was the 1st time i go into casino.. at 1st we just looked at people and c them how to play.. afterthat.. makcik ling wanna try coz this is the 1st time we came in.. she put RM5 at the 1st but unfortunately.. lose le.. haha.. but she wanna try again.. thn she put 5 again... she hold my hand very tight.. i can feel tat she is very excited+ a bit scare.. she also got touched touched my lucky lucky bear bear coz i believe this bear always bring luck to me.. haha.. guess what.. she wons...

then i got met with mr kid at the casino.. we chat a while at thr.. his eyes seem like two days didnt sleep.. looks like panda already.. haha take care arh~ Mr kid~ later cant c ur eyes XD

and when the time i came bek to suling.. she already moved to another table.. continue playing the blackjack.. haha.. mali mali hom~ the luck was coming to her.. she was so so so happy and 'fly' at the casino untill all people looked at her.. haha funny lo.. =P i also feels happy when saw her like tat.. haha she treat me eat breakfast after reach sg long.. thxs lah ~ but dun always go thr orh~ later become "lan dou yi" haha XD

this new year.. hmm~ not bad.. happy and excited~ haha.. now looking forward for chinese new year.. fats fats guai~ chinese new year arh~ dun forget our last year 'yue ding' arh -->valentine.. lolx...

happy new year ^^