bleks~

finally~ i had finished my exam for p2 and p7..
though i not sure whether i can pass or not.. LOL

hmm hmm~ this sem.. something happened in my life n make me depressed, i even not really study for my mid term.. so.. haha.. i get a really bad results.. its frighten me when i look at my marks..

but then.. someone kehpo come and told me that he wanna help me.. (feel wanna beat me huh?? =D ) so i have to attend the so called "ah pang course", there is some rules & regulations that i have to follow:

1. wake up at 7am ( me: 7am?!! u kill me better )
2. eat breakfast, lunch, and dinner ( me: @@ try lah~)
3. try to sleep early ( me: orh~ >.<" )

at the beginning, i really cant get used of the day to wake up 7am in the morning in order to study.. i fell asleep few days.. LOL and therefore the consequences is.. punishment in arrears.. >.<" i not sure how many times alr.. coz he always use some excuses to add more punishment to me~ wahahhahaha~ =DDDDDDDDDDDD bad guy~!!

but then 'geng' is the word that i can use to describe him.. coz he really can make me awake to study for 1 month.. every time when i asked my friend to call me wake up in the morning.. i will then turn off my fon and continue sleep~!! he is the one who keep talking with me on the phone untill i totally awake and walk into the toilet.. ahaa.. i always said WAN AN with him when he called me to wake up~ purposely to make him angry coz his reaction is so funny~!! XDD

he force" me to eat my breakfast, lunch, and dinner which i always skip.. but then i still can find many excuses to skip my lunch during that month.. XDDDDD.. eii.. better than last time lah~ dun angry again when see this okie.. =)

he is juz like my mum.. he will angry when i didnt take my dinner and lunch.. very funny.. so that i will call him 'mummy' sometimes.. he is quite strict (always scold me for my laziness) but then he will feel sympathy and let me rest more.. this is what i unexpected.. =D

overall, he is a good lecturer + good mummy + good friend for me.. the one who cheer me up when i am upset and depress.. and get back my study mood =))))

wei~ wanna say thank u.. sincerely.. for the month..
which i have wasted a lot of ur time.. i appreaciate it =)
i really duno i can pass the paper or not.. sorry, it might dissapointed u..
time flies.. and i miss that time ^^ though it was suffered but memorable and funny..
thanks ah pang =)

别傻了~

觉得。。 人性怎么那么虚伪。。
虚伪到。。 连我自己都被骗了。。

明明亲眼看见了。。 却被动摇了。。
还是连我自己也找个借口骗自己。。

别傻了~ stephy pink..
这是朋友告诉我。。

我也告诉自己："别傻了" ~ ♥

to stephy pink~ ♥

progress test is coming soon.. few days more..
i really have no idea bout it..
what happened to me.. i still cant find back my study mood..

Stephy pink~ ♥
u should have concentrate on ur study..
don't disappointed ur parents..
don't think of other.. u should learn to let go altot is it hard for you..
everything gonna be alright, right? as what u always told urself..





life still goes on...

appreciate =)

见了蛮多的朋友。。 谈了很多的话。。
真的真的不敢让自己停下来。。 害怕回忆。。 害怕想起每一个昨天。。 深怕眼泪会掉下来。。

深怕我撑不住的朋友。。 有的陪我信息。。 有的陪我通电话。。 有的陪我msn。。 直到我睡着。。
陪我吃了不想吃的午餐。。 还有不想吃的晚餐。。
谢谢你们的笑话。。 你们的关心。。 你们的陪伴。。 巧克力。。
每次想到你们的关心。。 眼眶总有泪。。 真的很感动。。
如果让你们见到一个突然很安静。。 沉思的我。。 真的很对不起。。
我真的试着要活的很开心。。

真的还需要时间适应。。 真的真的还放不开。。
真的真的心疼。。
真的受伤了。。

笑的大声。。 其实想掩饰我的痛。。
我暂时还找不回我自己。。

可是真的谢谢你们的陪伴。。 让我度过每一个艰难的时刻。。
不让我颓废的过。。
i really appreciate =)

事实。。

此刻，我的心宁静得像一片天空。。

心痛？
只是像被刀一次次的切割在伤口。。

哭。。 没有啊。。
只是懂了泪往心里流的感受。。

我在朋友面前狂笑。。 呐喊。。 都只是为了掩饰。。
我让我自己忙。。 只为了不要再想。。

是真的不想了吗？最终还是骗不了自己。。
你在信息里的话。。 都在我脑里徘徊。。
在睡梦中醒了好几次。。 仍然不敢接受这已经成了事实。。 但。。 这的确是事实。。

这并不是我想要的结局。。 可是。。 我不能自私。。
该尊重你的决定。。转身离开。。
虽然心疼。。 不舍。。
但至少。。 能换回你的快乐。。 会变得值得。。

心想还会有机会吗？ 看着镜子的我对着自己说：‘傻瓜~ 别在想了~ 人家都说清楚了’
忍着眼泪，对自己微笑。。
枫~要笑着过。。虽然。。 不懂怎么去面对每个失去你的明天。。

乱~

心情很乱~ 超乱的~
像我的头发一样乱~ 像我书桌上的课本一样乱~
我可以什么都不要想。。 什么都不要理了吗？
可以不要被这些事情影响吗？

快回来。。 stephy pink~!