happy new year~

huhu~ seem like so long didnt online already..

line got problem this few days..

new year is coming soon..

last year..

still remeber i celebrate with my hometown frens..

sg wang.. quite happy de.. spray here spray thr...

this coming new year...

dunno still can with them or not..

may be someone think tat i got a new fren.. this year i wont be cele with them...

hmmm~

i have been waiting them to cele new year with me...

but i think..

it wont happen again..

and i think they have their plan le ba..

many things had changed...

it wont still the same like last time..

but i hope i can with them in this new year just like last year...

again.. whenever they are.. and in case im not with them in this coming new year..

i..

wishing them...

happy new year..

* * * * * * 圣诞快乐 * * * * * *

现在感觉到头晕晕的~ 很想睡觉。。 呼呼~

再多几天。。 圣诞就要来临了。。

还有新的一年。。

时间不停再转。。 转啊转。。

真想它会停留。。

还是回到过去。。。

回到属于我的地方。。 过着我以前不会珍惜的时光。。

回到以前无话不说的朋友。。

就算没有庆祝。。 喝着茶。。 谈着天。。 就会很开心了。。

这个圣诞。。 你们会去哪里呢？

无论身在哪儿。。 * * * 祝你们圣诞快乐 * * *

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fat fat guai.. i writting this blog when im half - consious..

today i told u tat the world is so horrible...

haha.. but i already accept it..

as long as i beleve in myself..

u too believe in me rite..

i noe u do..

really thx for u stay by my side whenever i nid it..

with no change..

thx fats =>

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someone say he is hard to read chinese here.. lolx

ok lo try to write english here lah..

these few months few days..

emm.. so many things happened to me.. some changes...

fren.. family.. blablabla~

i duno i can get used of it or not..

but it is time for me to change..

no more hesitate.. think positively..

and concern those ppl who are really care for me..

few more month will graduate soon.. curious about my future..

how will i become?

hanging a LV bag with my mini cooper.. lolx hope so.. XD

hmmm.. cant deny that status.. money is quite important..

but i hope i still will be the same to everyone.. a gal who like to smile all the time..

with no stress n pressure =>

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最近的心情总是反反复复。。

分不清到底什么是错或对。。 好或坏。。 犹豫不决。。 下不了决定。。

想了很多。。 还是得不到结论。。

对一边好。。 却对另一边残忍。。

难道没有两全其美的方法吗。。

finish~!

finally~ finish the final for this sem..

few days n weeks didnt sleep well..

but luckly.. got frens accompany me to burn the night oil.. hehe.. n my lucky lucky =>

the paper for this sem quite challenging..

and i only aim for pass ... T.T

go back home must sleep cukup cukup ~! lolx..

hmmm

this feeling.. come and approaching me again.. i hate.. i really hate this feel..

can i jz avoid it and pretending that i dunno wat is really happening?

or may be.. i think too much alr..

hope so... =)

❤ 十 ❤ 二十 ❤ 三十 ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

不知不觉。。 已经活了二十个年头。。人生会有多少个十年呢？

十岁时。。 还不懂事。。 头里咬着巧克力蹲在电视旁看卡通。。

二十岁了。。不同的是。。 呆在电脑前看港剧。。 哈哈。。

爸爸说网络世界很黑暗。。 千万别被人骗。。他大概都不清楚我在干什么吧。。 所以每次看我呆在电脑前。。 总爱唠叨几句。。

二十一岁了。。 该做工的都工作了。。该结婚都的嫁了。。读书的还在读书。。联络的还连络着。。没联络的都消失了。。。

怀念在我生命中出现的每一个人。。

他们在我这二十个年头里留些下什么。。也带走了些什么。。

怀念以前骑单车玩家家酒的日子。。怀念上课时铃钟响起的那刻。。

二十岁在怀念着十岁。。 同样的。。 二十岁也在嘲笑着十岁时的幼稚。。 然而。。未来的三十岁会被现在的二十岁给逗笑吗。。

人长大了。。 思想就会改变。。这让二十岁的我不得不承认。。 以前多莫坚定的思想。。 也开始动摇了。。也开始慢慢把坚定放弃了。。

二十岁也羡慕着十岁时单纯的想法。。 十岁从来都不知道。。 长大了。。 真的会想很多很多。。
二十岁说做的每件事。。 说的每句话。。 都会影响着她自己。。 和身边的每个人。。

但二十岁晓得。。 未来的十年。。路程会更艰难。。

她听的见。。 三十四十甚至是五十岁。。在默默为她加油。。

因为未来的三十四十五十岁。。 幸不幸福。。 就得靠二十岁了。。。

二十岁。。 加油❤

夜

夜里的空气。。 好静好静。。

什么时候喜欢了这种静。。 又或许。。 已经习惯了这种静。。

一个人坐在电脑桌前。。听着歌。。 歌词好像都是悲伤的。。 符合了这种心情。。这种静。。

若能躺在草地上。。听着歌。。 望着天上的星星。。慢慢的欣赏夜的静。。应该很舒服吧。。

夜里。。总会想很多很多。。 想。。 在现实中无法实现的梦想。。 想。。 要怎么过明天全新
的一天。。 想。。 。。。。 很多很多很多。。。。

信息里朋友的关心。。 使这个静的夜晚显得特别温软。。 或许他和我一样喜欢了夜的静。。又或许他也习惯了这种静。。


夜里。。 好静好静。。。

牺牲了睡眠。。 只为了欣赏夜的美。。 夜的静。。

在夜里陪伴下所向往梦想实现了吗。。 想好了怎样过全新的明天了吗。。

还没。。

可能还要很多很多。。。 这样的夜晚。。 梦想才会实现。。

期待着每个夜晚。。 期待着梦想实现的那天。。


夜里。。 真的好静好静。。。

窗外传来小鸟的叫声。。 告别了夜的静。。 开始了新的一天。。

揉着疲累的眼睛。。和夜说了一声晚安。。 再和自己说了一声早安。。慢慢的把眼睛关上。。


夜里。。 静静的。。

轻轻的对你说声。。 晚安。。。

~+ memorable trip +~

sem break again~
b4 final our hiao gang alr planned to go mak cik ling's hometown play.. PeRlis..
but i got a sick during my last subject.. T.T
i nt even dare to tell my dad that i wanna go travell after my exam..

last day of exam~ audit practice..
at 1st i tot i cant go perlis with my hiao gang.. wuwu~
but mak cik ling took up my hp and called my dad..
lolz.. finnally~~~~ sure success lah~ i immediately went bek home and pick up my things..
prepared go to perlis luh~
err.. sorry arh sifat guai.. have to ffg le >.<

we took 11pm++ bus..
i woke up few times in the bus.. the last time that i woke up is alr 6am something..
suppose reach perlis station jor de wor.. but y.. we still sleep here.. i told myself..
thn i heard a people ask us turun..
but the blur and jz woke up de mak cik ling told the people here not our destination..
then the people respond again.. ini last station lah~
what??!!!! my hiao gang all suddenly awake~ hahaha
tidur tidur~ angkap ini hotel arh~ i remember the people said this.. funny lo.. we keep lauf..

luckly we met mak cik ling's fren here.. cheng long? he fecth us bek suling's hse..
after that we had a breakfast with mak cik ling fren as to thank him for fetch us bek..

after that.. mak cik ling said wanna take us go the borderline between thailand and perlis to take a look.. we went to the shop of duty free.. but we buy ntg thr..
yiek yiek~ my hiao gang suggest that we can try to go into thailand WITHOUT PASSPORT!!!
gerk gerk gerk~ we moved in with our nervous.. excited.. heart and finally we reach the custom..
the officer suppose to check our passport but thy didnt~ we jz passed through our car like that~
hahaha~ we all lauf and began our thailad trip~ we went to temple of thailand and took some picture and after that we went to a shopping mall..
i forgot what the name of the shopping mall..
i love the tomyam~ diffrent here..
and the milk ice blended.. y M'sia dun have the branches T.T miss the milk blended..
we also bought few boxes of tomyam instant noodles.. yiam yiam~~
it's time to bek to perlis fetch lok lok~ he came from ipoh to join us..
b4 bek mak cik ling recommended us to eat.. err.. i forgot the name again..
is a kind of pulut and a fried chicken.. and have to use our hand to eat.. quite delicious.. sastified~!
finally we jz realized that we can be fined RM10000 or go into jail without passport.. lolx.. NVM~~ is alr passed~ and a good experience =P







on the way bek thailand.. we saw a unique mountain and decided to take some pictures here..
therefore we stop thr for a few minutes.. the move down from car and saw a cow opposite the road.. the cow keep MooO~ us like warning us dun play play thr...
the place full of grass and sawah padi..
we chose a nice place to take our photo.. me and makcik ling standby thr while weijian helping emay to cross the drain..
suddenly.. i heard some voice.. and felt some movement of the grass jz behind me.. i turn bek my head and see.. OMG.. is a cow~ the cow is coming toward us.. i scream~
mak cik ling more panic than me.. she hold my hand and keep run.. argh~~ we keep scream..
very scare arh~ i forgot how we cross the drain alr.. haha.. jz run nia..
we stop at the place that have a distance with the cow.. weijian and emay alr escape from that place.. faster than us.. but heard them said emay fall down wor.. @@
the yenping more blur.. asked us to stop thr bcoz she was holding the camera.. she duno what is really happening that time =.=

mak cik~ i noe how a cow looks like jor.. and i think u should noe ostrich is called 'tuo niao' not 'luo tuo'~ lolx XD

we fetch lok lok and have a seafood dinner..









2nd day we went to langkawi.. we rent a car went to the seaside of langkawi..
mak cik ling.. yenping and me didnt bring extra clothes but we still play water in the beach..
after play water we felt thirsty and wanna get some drinking..
we saw a stall that sell coconut and we dicided to drink that..
yenping move towards to the coconut stall.. and talk to the people : " 3 air kepala~! "
lolx~ all people lauf till stomachache

b4 we leave.. we bought some chocolate and alcohol..










we spent our 3rd and 4th days n penang..we have our brunch at 'tao'.. is a buffet..
we eat alot till the waiter asked us ' u sure u all can finish?'
sure~~
haha.. they really ordered alot.. and finaly we duno what we are actually eating.. too full alr.. keep eat and hav to finish in time..
the waiter called us naughty when the time he ned to bek.. haha.. we really notti and crazy~









we went to penang hill and 极乐峙..




penang has alot of food to eat.. such as asam laksa.. char koew teow..
we also play water at the beach.. and ride banana boat.. this is the 1st time ride banana boat actually.. hehe.. we were enjoy..
at 1st we planned to sleep at the seaside but we cant get a place to bath and change our clothes and finnaly we found a motel.. but the toilet is transparent.. @@
mak cik~~ haha i saw u... lolx... =P

we walk around the street and took some picture at '"the ship"
mak cik said wanna have a wedding here~ haha..





aft that we bek to the motel and open the liquor which we bought from penang..
mak cik ling 2nd cup alr mabuk.. haha..
drink drink drink~ after 6 or 7 cup.. this time i realy mabuk le~ blur @@
i cant even walk straight ..
the talkative yenping become vry quiet when mabuk.. haha..
lok lok became sot sot dei.. emay~ haha.. talked some 18xx topic.. lolz
and i vomit and stay in the toilet vry long.. lame~ thx for wj take k me arh.. hehe












nex day we have our brunch at auto city.. at the toilet bowl restaurant..

after that we moved and bek perlis..
we 6 people ride 3 motorcycle and went to a sawah padi to take some picture..
we also have tok a MV thr ~ dao xiang~ lolx.. XD

we have our dinner at mak cik ling's hse.. her mum prepared a lot of food for us.. vry delicious arh.. thx ya~ i wan the sambal~ haha

after that we packed up our things and prepared to go bek our hometown luh~
we all were vry tired and sleep at the bus..
once again~ we missed our station =.=
i got wake up too and wake yenping up to asked her izit our station pudu alr passed..
but she told me not ~ =.=
and finaly we came to kajang terminal~ huhu~
we took bus and bek to sg long.. lolx

this trip realy got a lot funny and memorable things..

i will never regret follow my hiao geng to this trip~

homa~~ y u dun come ~ bad bad~~

❤.❤

its have been a long time that i do not update my blog..
kinda sleepy today..
jz bek from uni.. last week last lec and tutorial for tis sem..
preparing for final..
preparing to play... haha..

❤ business finance

❤ taxation

❤ perfomance management

❤ company law

❤ audit practice

tis sem got a bit hard.. jz hope to pass all these subject..



final jia you^^
all the best to myself and my frens~~

[❤ poison❤ ]

- 无聊-

打开了部落格。。 想写写东西。。 却不知道该写些什么。。
闷~
assignment 赶完了。。 期中考也考完了。。
忙碌已久的生活总算有机会休闲下下。。 但是却不习惯。。
或许。。 这就是人性吧。。 忙的时候总是在抱怨。。 闲下来后却觉得闷。。
可是。。 如有的选择。。 后者会比较好。。呵。。 我还是懒惰的。。

在时钟的摇摆中。。 这个学期的二分之一又过去了。。
翘了的课我数不清。。课堂上打瞌睡的情况已见怪不见怪。。
谈了很多很多的天。。 笑了很多很多的笑话。。也说了蛮多的坏话。。
友情一天比一天好。。
日子总是重复性的过。。 开心还没值得庆祝。。 伤心也未曾使我堕落。。
没什么特别。。 平凡就是福？？
还好吧~

该开始注重健康了吗。。 毕竟年龄也不小。。 虽然外表看起来是。。 呵。。
世界到底变得怎样了。。 还搞不清楚。。 新闻还是那么少看。。
各界已经开始重视我们的地球吗。。
显示牌说明不能乱抛垃圾。。 可是地下却一堆。。

一加一总是会得到二吗。。
为什么现在的我总是得到负数。。

钱不是一切。。 说来容易。。 谁不会被金钱给蒙蔽呢。。
显然。。 钱或许可以等于一切。。不是吗？
喜欢了不一定要去爱。。 爱了不一定会长久。。。
承诺只不过是爱情中的一剂麻醉药。。 让人迷糊其中。。

我爱听歌我爱唱歌。。 可是问我喜欢什么歌。。
我却答不出来。。

发现自己的华语差了。。 文笔也有问题了。。
有人说。。 华人也不一定要会华语。。 可是我爱我的母语。。 ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
先学好自己的母语再去学别的语言吧。。 这是我的想法。。

曾经重要的总是被遗忘。。缺点总是被放大来看。。
看着别人的脸色过日子。。 失去了真正的自己。。
该卸下伪装的面具吗。。可是吃亏的只有自己。。

嗯。。 都学会了。。一加一不是时常能得到二。。
生活就是那么不公平。。
善良的本性总会被现实的世界所扭曲。。 谁又能真正的出而泥于不染呢。。

搞不懂今天的主题是什么。。 想到什么就写什么。。
难道。。 我写的都是错的吗？ 呵。。
个人有个的高见吧。。
写完部落格的我会做什么呢。。。 未知。。

[完- 闷闷篇]

-忆-

那天参加了表姐的婚礼。。 亲戚们多的我都分不清楚了。。
记得他们的样子。。 但却喊不不出他们的称号。。 只好笑笑的点点头。。
比起小时候。。那种熟悉感。。 毫不犹豫地喊出称他们的称号。。 和他们玩闹着的情景已大不同了。。
毕竟。。 成长总会失去些什么。。 不是吗？


婚礼之前。。 在叔叔家。。 久违见面从泰国回来的亲戚。。 看了看我。。 我对他们笑了笑。。 他们说我长得象妈妈。。 我还是笑了笑。。 过后再和姑姑说说话。。 她牵着我的手。。 问了问我近况。。 好久没有这样被牵了。。 感觉很亲切。。
过后。。 给妈妈上了香。。 就出发了。。。


婚礼。。 表姐很美丽。。 新郎也很俊俏。。 祝他们白头偕老。。。
婚礼后。。 大家互相道别。。 带点醉意的表叔叔过了来。。

“枫~ 没有叫叔叔啊？ ”
“叔叔~” 我笑笑。。 其实我还真得有点忘记了要叫什么了。。
“要好好读书。。 爸爸对我说他都把心血放你身上了” 他摸了摸我的头。。
‘嗯’我笑笑点点头。。
‘得空要常回家陪爸爸，知道吗？’
‘嗯，我会的~ ’再次的笑笑点点头。。

过后。。 慈祥的叔婆。。 过了来。。 问问我的状况。。 说很久没有看过我。。
她也摸了摸我。。 问我过得好不好。。 上车前。。 她还回头望了望我。。
眼神中透漏那么一点的同情。。

大家请放心。。 我会过得好好的。。

在车上。。 回想刚才。。 想回妈妈。。 数一数。。 她已经离开了七个月了。。
时间总是那么快。。

之前。。
妈问我说。。‘如果我离开了，你会怎样？’
‘不要想太多啦。。 不会的。。’我摇摇头苦笑着。。因为我相信她并不会将快离开我。。 我一直都相信着。。。不会是我。。

至今。。梦见了她。。在梦里醒来。。 本以为起床就能见到她在客厅的。。 但。。 愣了几分钟。。才发现。。
妈。。已经离开了。。
‘她真的离开了吗？？’ 我问自己。。
她离开了。。 是真的。。真的真的离开。。 了我。。


‘快回到房里读书！！’
‘好啦~’中学时候的我苦着脸说。。
把书放上了桌上。。 手里拿的是手机。。书？？ 闷啦~ 从不认真望它一眼。。
上课。。 老师说着。。 我也说着。。
那时的我总觉得大人们都很烦。。 总吹着孩子们读书。。 补习。。 难道不懂我们会累吗？
‘长大了你就会知道我们的苦心！！ 到底是为了什么。。’


妈。。 现在我真的懂了。。后悔以前那么的不努力。。
如果你离开了我会怎样。。 以前都答不到您。。 现在。。 补答回。。
[我会好好活下去。。并挂念着您。。 好好读书。。]


我还有好久好久的未来。。 少了您的未来。。
一开始真的不懂怎么办。。 就算是现在。。 生活还是迷迷糊糊的。。 没有了依靠。。
但还是得活下去。。
我往前走。。 不断的走。。 却不知目的地。。
小孩离开了妈妈的怀抱。。 总要学习着独立。。
真正的笑容。。 多久已没有出现了。。
开心的眼神总是带点忧郁。。 烦恼总 随着年龄而增加。。


当生命结束。。 一切都归零？？ 什么都没有？？ 带也带不走。。 记得妈妈说过酱的话题。。

妈。。 并不是酱的。。
就算你走了。。
你还有。。 留下来的。。 我。。
你也带走了。。 我想念您的心。。


没有了您。。 也不会有那么的一个我。。
虽然我们母女俩缘份已尽。。 但我知道。。 您会静静的在某个角落守护着我。。 我相信着。。
我一直都相信。。 这次。。 永远都会相信着。。

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当生命结束。。 一切都归零。。 什么都没有。。 带也带不走。。。。

留下来的。。 还有。。我。。
带走的。。 是我想念您的。。 心。。

[女儿 _ 枫]

-assingment-

finally~ we had done and submit all our assignment..
we were exceed our limit.. coz we never have a good nite sleep in this week..
each day sleep about few hours just bcoz of the assignment..
especially our makcik ling.. need not sleep at all @@

in these few days.. i spend most of my time at my fren's hse..
1st time feel that.. sofa can be a comfortable place to sleep.. haha..
3 of us sleep at the sofa.. even the alarm also cant wake us up.. luckly our hiao president yp suddenly awake and wake us up...

stressful.. moody... angry.. @#%$..
all those emotion... appeared when we are doing our assignment..
but.. there are also some funny and hiao things happpened between us.. haha..
since our hiao president fanny and hiao vice president yp thr.. we do talk alot of nonsense to lauf and relief our stress..


we all look like a vampire coz we jz sleep for few hours each day..
panda eyes are shown up @@
almost fall asleep in the class.. skip for classes.....
someone said that it is not deserve to skip a class just bcoz of the assignment.. but finnaly she didnt attend the class while others did... =.= haha kinda funny.. our hiao vice president...

these few days.. kinda tired.. all of us..
i duno whether i did help alot in the assignment onot..
i jz noe... as a group member.. when my members need me.. i still will fighting the assignment with them even i am contributed lesser or none on that part.. at least.. thy noe my heart is with them :p haha.. overcome all the problems together..

is time for me to rest? or it is jz a beggining?
gonna prepare for my study that i have left out.. haizxx..
hope i can make it...


[poison]

- 无言 -

朋友嘛。。 冲突是难免的。。
如果真的有冲突。。 就先了解整件事情的真相。。不要把责怪都推到别人身上。。
不留余地的责骂。。扭转别人的意思和好意。。


当一个人不谅解你时。。 可能是别人的问题。。
当越来越多人开始不谅解。。。 并离你越来越远。。
那很可能就是你的问题。。

谁会让伤心眼泪从自己的朋友眼睛掉下来呢。。
如果是。。 他并不配。。

im tir3d~

can i ignore everything in my life?
feel so tired~

stressful.. all go inside my mind...
physically and mentally tired..
i scare i cant bear it anymore..

stp.. can the time stp....
i jz wanto rest.... for a few days....
and to think..

im losing.... hope someone can guide me and give me a direction.. on my future..
future.. i noe ntg... and i.. i... plan ntg on it...
should i? start to plan now?
but.. how???

Vaccination

After taxation class, there had a lot of time for me to rest because it finished b3fore 2pm as earlie than what the class suppose to be end..
i packed up my notes with my tired mind and body walked to a grocery with mak cik ling, may may an homa to acc them buy something.. and i whispered to myself.. when i reach home.. the 1st thing i should do is sleep.. im realy tired =/

the time when i reach my home is alr 2pm.. as usual.. i turn on my laptop and surfing on the net for a while.. suddenly.. my hp vibrate.. it's dad! i got a gut feeling that i will get some blame from him and here thr are.. he asked go for clinic to take the cervical vaccination.. it's quite a long time that i had my 1st vaccination.. and i not suppose take the 2nd vaccination for so late..

my dad came and fetch me at 3pm something.. my sleep time gone~~ T.T
at the counter.. the nurse asked me ' u suppose to take ur vaccination 1 month after ur 1st vaccination rite? ' the month when i took is about december..
' err.. yea.. bt i forgot =.= ' i said so
' didnt thy informed u' ?
'no, i didnt get any call from thm~ tat's y i forgot'
'enn, sometime we have try to call those ppl but sometimes nobody is answer..' she smiling...
i smile with her.. and i reali didnt get any call from them..

the injection took RM 300 and the doctor said it's nvr mind for me to take the vaccination this day.. altot it's a bit late.. but it's not too late..

b3fore i leave.. the nurse remind me come bek for june to take the 3rd vaccination and she will call me ~ haha.. i alr bear in mind lah.. i wont forget this time.. may b :P

frenSz, dun worry..
i dun have cervical cancer and yet im healthy...
this cervical vaccination is jz a prevention.. as it's become common nowadays..
and here is some of the information i found on website...


Definition

Cervical cancer is cancer that starts in the cervix, the lower part of the uterus (womb) that opens at the top of the vagina.

Causes

Worldwide, cervical cancer is the third most common type of cancer in women. It is much less common in the United States because of routine use of Pap smears.
Cervical cancers start in the cells on the surface of the cervix. There are two types of cells on the cervix's surface: squamous and columnar. The majority of cervical cancers are from squamous cells.
The development of cervical cancer is usually very slow. It starts as a pre-cancerous condition called dysplasia. This pre-cancerous condition can be detected by a Pap smear and is 100% treatable. That is why it is so important for women to get regular Pap smears. Most women that are diagnosed with cervical cancer today have not had regular Pap smears or they have not followed up on abnormal results.
Undetected, pre-cancerous changes can develop into cervical cancer and spread to the bladder, intestines, lungs, and liver. It can take years for pre-cancerous changes to turn into cervical cancer. Patients with cervical cancer do not usually have problems until the cancer is advanced and has spread.
Almost all cervical cancers are caused by HPV (human papilloma virus). HPV is a common virus that is spread through sexual intercourse. There are many different types of HPV, and many do not cause problems. However, only certain strains of HPV actually lead to cervical cancer. (Other strains may cause genital warts.)
Other risk factors for cervical cancer include:
Having sex at an early age
Multiple sexual partners
Sexual partners who have multiple partners or who participate in high-risk sexual activities
Women whose mothers took the drug DES (diethylstilbestrol) during pregnancy in the early 1960s to prevent miscarriage
Weakened immune system
Poor economic status (may not be able to afford regular Pap smears)

Symptoms

Most ot the time, early cervical cancer has no symptoms. Symptoms that may occur can include:
Continuous vaginal discharge, which may be pale, watery, pink, brown, bloody, or foul-smelling
Abnormal vaginal bleeding between periods, after intercourse, or after menopause
Periods become heavier and last longer than usual
Any bleeding after menopause

Symptoms of advanced cervical cancer may include:

Loss of appetite
Weight loss
Fatigue
Pelvic pain
Back pain
Leg pain
Single swollen leg
Heavy bleeding from the vagina
Leaking of urine or feces from the vagina
Bone fractures

Prevention

A new vaccine to prevent cervical cancer is now available. In June 2006, the U.S. Food and Drug Administration approved the vaccine called Gardasil, which prevents infection against the two types of HPV responsible for the majority of cervical cancer cases. Studies have shown that the vaccine appears to prevent early-stage cervical cancer and precancerous lesions. Gardasil is the first approved vaccine targeted specifically to prevent any type of cancer.
Practicing safe sex (using condoms) also reduces your risk of HPV and other sexually-transmitted diseases. HPV infection causes genital warts. These may be barely visible or several inches wide. If a woman sees warts on her partner's genitals, she should avoid intercourse with that person.
To further reduce the risk of cervical cancer, women should limit their number of sexual partners and avoid partners who participate in high-risk sexual activities.
Getting regular Pap smears can help detect pre-cancerous changes, which can be treated before they turn into cervical cancer. Pap smears work very well in spotting such changes, but they must be done regularly. Annual pelvic examinations, including a pap smear, should start when a woman becomes sexually active, or by the age of 20 in a non-sexually active woman. If abnormal changes are seen.

If you smoke, quit. Cigarette smoking is associated with an increased risk of cervical cancer.


after the injection.. i have some pain on my left hand.. it's not reali pain and it's normal..
according to the doctor.. the liquid of the vaccination is a bit 'hot'.. not really hot until burn ur hand lah =.= hee... tat's y our hand will pain for few days after the vaccination..
but.. the pain is still acceptable, anyone also can bear the pain..
i also can bear the pain.. y dun u?

attention!!
my frenz and lady~ plz take note ...
if u have time.. move ur 1st step.. go for a cervical vaccination... despite u r healthy or not.. bcoz our life has many uncertain that we are unexpected..
if boy.. u wanna take... jz go ahead~ if u have cervical~ :P

3 cervical injection are needed to take for each person..
and 2nd injection is 1 month aft the 1st injection..
the 3rd is 6 mothn after the 2nd injection..
*may b due to the mothn that i have late for 2 month.. doctor ask me go for june gua..

Go for the clinic or any hospital that near ur hse and inquries about the cervical cancer vaccination.. for prevention purpose..
remeber that.. prevetion is better than cure!!

and lastly~ remind me in june when i forgot to take my 3rd vaccination :P

❤ hope everyone stay healtty and healtier from day to day ^^


[ poison ]

测验后～

终于。。 又考完了一课。。
这次的测验应该考得比之前的都好吧。。
之前的management performance。。 让我绝望再绝望。。
第一次让我考试绝望到有酱的感觉。。
好想放弃的。。 但知道不可以。。
咳~ 考了就算了吧。。 就final需要更努力。。 就只能酱。。对吧？

还有两科测验。。
不希望有酱的感觉。。 无助的在考场。。 停止的让笔在纸上言论着。。
眼睁睁看着时间一分一秒的过。。

❤读书时娱乐，娱乐时读书❤
是我爱说的一句名句。。 呵呵。。
考完今天audit。。 大家的脸都是笑的。。所以偶的同学们决定去看电影咯。。
要娱乐+轻松下。。
ToMCruise 演的。。

还没进到我们的电影院位子我们就被弄笑。。 因为有人被吓到啦。。 哈哈。。
电影开场了。。虽然电影没有笑点。。 但我还是一直笑。。 因为坐我旁边的人还是一直被吓到。。那位小姐应该懂我在说着她吧~ XD

电影里的我和我旁边那位小姐似乎有些看不大懂。。有一位竟然在睡觉 ZzzzZ
只有我们的左秤小姐说她看的很懂。。 还和我们说着德国的历史。。
嗯啦。。 我们的知识比较浅啦~ 呵呵~

我的快乐与开心总是在朋友之间找到。。 虽然不算是很豪华的开心。。
平平淡淡的日子只要有他们的笑声就够了。。

❤　希望我也能带给你们开心．．．



［✖枫✖］

L-O-V-E

people around me seem started to involved in love..
as well as some love problems..
looking throught their face.. kinda swe3ts..
3ven some of them went into love probl3ms.. from their heart.. they nOe.. they are still care for each other.. but it's not good timing to be with each other..

r u in love now? or u still seeking the one that u love?
look at the ppl beside u.. r she or he is the one u love the most..
or.. u r the one that he or she love the most..

true love.. does it exist??
from my though.. love cant be trusted...
but there was a time that i believed in i have found my true love.. but finally.. i have ntg.. but a blame..

=================================

ppl who r in love with each other but cant be with..
i wonder.. how was that feel..
solve the problem 2gether to get rid of the barries?
at least.. when they are trying.. there is a chance.. there is a hope..
or.. Jz..
waiting.. the time pass by.. without trying anything.. waiting.. the love.. to dissapear from day to day...

who can fill the pieces of my broken heart..

im living here in the absence of love..
my heart is calm.. i dun have any expectation on love nowadays..

but i do need care.. from.. whom that are really care for me.. and i care for them...

who can fill the pieces of my broken heart.. no On3...

[x iM Jz Ntg~ x ]

tim3 CoNsum3r

Recently feel so tired..
7am something wake up in the morning..
always feel sleepy in the lecture class..
after class i will have my brunch with my fren..
after that.. go bek home continue sleep for few hours..
sleep eat sleep eat..
no time spend for my study... =.=
n lazy... is the main reason :P

nex week still got 2 midterm..
duno how to arrange my time to study.. and assignment..
the finance test make me so dissaiponted.. dun hope to get bek and c my paper..
haizxx..

and here.. wanna thx makcik ling help me in my study..
haha i decided to rely on u alr..
b my part time tuition teacher la..

and for those who viewing this blog..
pLz do remind me study.. when u c a lazy gal bz with the laptop without doing something tat is related to my study.. haha..

i wonder whr my time spend to...

as someone said.. it's take a lot of time to surfing on the net..
we should spend those time on our study rather tn on9..
lolx.. i noe n agree.. but.. jz say say nia..
i wont do tat.. but i will control~ haha..

for the nex test... ?????
nt dare to think of it... GG~
i Ne3d more tim3~~

@--%-- valentin3 --%--@

happy belated valentine~

b4 the valentine started.. all the place and environment already surrounding with many flowers and bear bear.. even my University and the roadside near my hse..
its make me feel like... love is all around the air..

i nvr celebrate valentine b4 and i always used to forget which day it is..
the important and romantic day to every couple..
somehow...
some of my frens told me...
valentine day is created by people themself.. thr is no valentine day at 1st...
is that real???
another fren told me.. thr is not neccessary for every couple to celebrate valentine in that day.. if they are really in love.. everyday can b valentine..
hmmm.. i agree with tat..
y force urself to be romantic on valentine? haha.. and no point to argue on that day if ur partner do not celebrate or cant celebrate with u due to certain reasons rite..

this valentine..
a bit special for me..

morning.. i meet someone that important for me..
emm.. rest more bah.. take good k of urself.. that wat i whispered from my heart to u..

after that i have my brunch with my hsemate kent jiang~ guess wat is our brunch... tat was instant noodles.. lolx.. suddenly feel like.. why so cham.. after ate thn bz with my asignment.. kent jiang~ thx for the noodles tat u cook arh.. hoho..

suddenly my phone vibrate wor.. is makcik ling..
she asked me go out yumyumcha and do assignment together..
emm ok lo~ since i have no whr to go..
thn y.ping, me and makcik ling went from old town to secret recipe and finally station one =.=
3 gals gather together during valentine and bz with the laptop.. haha.. it was funny.. we lauf at each other.. pakto with each other arh.. =P

after a few hour thr.. i went to a horror movie with tat Mr kid.. =p
thx u also arh.. if not i realy no whr to go.. haahaa..
n the little gift..

lastly...


flowerS.. i wish to receive since im small.. haha..
thx for the person who gave me as my bday present where thr is my 1st time to receive and this valentine again..
emmm.. let time to heal it ba.. v still fren... and take k in everything *wink~

homa~ thx for ur chocolate too~~ haha
hope u can reali find ur true love..
or not.. i become ur tempory partner also can de~ XD

makcik ling~ my choc lei? havent give me @@ haa promise me alr de wor..
n sifat guai~ i wan choc~ haha


flowerS ... bear.. chocolate.. love.. valentine...

this valentine.. suprisely.. got fren acc me.. for the nex valentine..
will i be with the one that i love?? emm.. may b not..
Coz.. im tired in love already.. confused....

valentine.. mean Ntg to m3....


[poison]

no tittle

started worry about my study.. feel thr is always insuffiecient time for me..
always think wanna study hard at the beginning of the new sem.. but finally done ntg..
last minutes to study and sit for exam..
thn the results also .... .... ....

y i am study here? for myself? my parents? emm... both?
fo future.. as well as my parents...
my parents have me only one and one daughter.. they used to put all their hope toward me..
im not a clever person.. i have to revise for many many times to understand a topic.. i have to put a lot of effort if compare to other person.. that's what i think for myself..

stressful~ pressure~ all gone inside my head..
dunno wat happened to me in this sem.. i cant concentrate like last time for my study..

my ideal place to study.. my small and little warm room..
i used to study and revise at here before every examination.. i feel calm and comfortable at here.. and i enjoy my study here~
but..
this is no longer that i can study at my little room as im not always go bek to my hse due to certain reason.. the place that belong to me is not belong to me anymore.. i have no home.. no more...... although thr is still a home...

who is reali understand me??
dad.. i noe i always did alot of things that make u worry and sad..
i like to hang out with frens every weekend is because.. i dun like to stay at hse that is not familiar to me.. i even shy to walk downstairs.. as i noe... this is not my hse.. i scare i will disturb them..
and u always scold me that i dunwan to take my meal..
but.. thr is really ntg to eat.. and.. i duno what should i eat if u buy for me.. so i jz decided to.. not to eat... for my brunch..
sorry for that..
but i swear.. dad.. i really will try my best at my study..


try try try try try trying.....
as for the promise for.... u.... and mum..... as well as.. . myself.....


[poison]

tO my d3ar fr3nS

c0mpany law midterm coming soon..

studyig now...

under seC 4(1) a company limited by shares is.. under sec 14(2) A company may be blablabla.. @@ haizxx.. dunno y cant concentrate.. cant bear in mind..

if everthing under the law.. is that good?
love?? frenship?? if got law to guide it? will it better?

quite dissapointed these days..
wat happen between us.. my frens..
how long will this situation continue? i reali dunno..
need time to calm down..

after this.. will our gang happy as b4..
or.. go out but hide everthing in the heart.. pretending to b happy?
shooting each other with some hurting words..
thn the situation bcome worst again..

tolerant...
is important in frenship..
but.. will it better to express ur feelings among ur frens rather than jz tolerate with ur unsastifaction..
i think.. if ur fren knew it.. she will try to change.. problems will b overcome..
keep everthing in heart.. angry at once.. the effect is powerful.. it can destroy a valuable frenship..

when can we group and meet up again?
all with a smiling face.. with no angry.. no secret..
with a true heart.. treating each other..

im waiting for it...

-s-t-a-y-

i noe.. u noe..
v both also knew it...

emm...


jz let it b despite how the situation change..
tat's the oli thing i wanted..
remaining.. maintaining...

i believe wat u had told me..
i will keep on believing unless u tell me not to do so..


jZ...
remember tis..
if we go to a divergent way..
dun sCare to come bek to me..
i will always stay at the beggining point whr we from and b ready for u whenever u need me..
with no lie.. with promise..

frenship 4eVer n ever~



[-f-a-t-t-f-a-t-t-g-u-a-i-]

- thx u -

thx for ur gift b4 u leave..
u make me cry infront of my dad..
realy should thx u a lot...
u told everything bout me to him..
yes i sholud admit there ia a gap between me n my dad..
n i do not tell him anything of me..
but im trying to talk with him sometime..
im reali trying..

But now u make him worry me even more..
so.. do u happy?
and.. u make me reali reali reali dunwan to get involve in love again..
that's wat u want?

wat i told u b4 is truth..
im leave is bcoz the problems between us.. not other..
y u jz dun trust me..
u told my dad the problems that u think is..

so.. now u get what's u wan..
my dad restict me go out with my fren.. haha..
think positively.. it's also good for my study.. izzit?

when together.. i cant get my freedom..
when u leave.. u took away my freedom....

''thx u''


[poison]
18/01/09
4.XX pm

----------------------

am i avoiding something?
sms.. call.. i didnt reply at all..
i dun feels wana reply..

i scare.. once i reply..
something will happen.. continue? discontinue?
i dun hope both of the consequences will happen on me..
it's sounds funny.. but..
im reali duno to do..

time to calm down.. is jz an excuses for me..
we cant make a deal.. our thinking and perception are different..
u need me.. i need freedom..
when that is the time i really need u.. u r not by my side..

im selfish.. i admit..
im more willing to spend time on my fren rather than u..
u complaint.. u sad..
i fed up.. i yell on u.. tis problem surrounding us 2 years since we get 2gether..

u ask on me? y i turn to like that..
i ask to u again.. dun u think is bcoz of u..
thn the answer and question bek to the starting point that whr we argue for..


fren and bf?

fren can last long.. but bf.. not..
i think we both also wont happy if v decide to continue our relationship..

my heart not with anyone now..
and i think.. u will noe what i am goin to do the next..

hope u can forgive me..

yea.. im selfish..

[x poison x]

- B-L-O-G -

blog.. the place to share.. hapiness and sadness..

however..her blog.. full of sadness..
she is kinda depresS.. on everything.. in this world..
she try to cheer up.. hang out with frenz.. shopping..
but back to herself.. loneliness is killing her..

she duno wat she is doing..
y she need to study..
even.. crying..
she jz noe.. after crying will be more comfortable..
and easy to get sleep..

she do wish that she would have more courages..
to..???? dunno...
take some challenges of her life.. perhaps..
to.. get rid of her dull life..


she is always showing a smiling face infront of people..
under the dark nite..
there is always a girl hugging her bear bear with her sadness..
pray for 2molo.. everything will going fine n fine..
she tell herself...

she will not be alone.. someone told her..
enn~ and i noe.. she will trust him...


[x end x]

啊太。。。。

太婆。。 印象中。。 她的身体很健康。。
九十多岁了。。 常走路到我的旧家。。 探望我们。。
手里总会拿着一些东西。。 分给我们。。
她很关心我们。。 妈妈也很关心她。。
总觉得她很厉害。。 像超人。。 走路比我快。。 声音比我响亮。。虽然已经九十多岁了。。
她常会对我们说她以前的经历。。 重复性的。。 那时觉得好笑。。
因为。。 她的回忆都是关于我们的。。 小时候的我怎样被她看护。。 妈妈阿姨们的趣事。。
大家都笑了。。
然而。。 她小时候的命运。。 并不是那么的好。。
她经历的。。 比我们一般人都还要辛苦。。

踏入百多岁了。。
声音还是一样的响亮。。 老人院门外。。 我已听见。。
她已不认得我了。。 她躺在沙发。。 和一位婆婆聊天。。
被提醒了几次。。 她才认出我和阿姨来。。 除了爸。。 她认得。。
我看了看她。。 突然觉得。。 眼泪快要流下了。。 我忍着。。我变得软弱了。。
刚被送到老人院的她。。 一直说想要回家。。她以为。。 她现在在的是朋友家。。
有时。。 善意的谎言。。 是需要的。。
至少。。 不会被残酷的事实给打击。。
她想回家。。 点香。。 她很信观音娘娘。。

一样的。。 她重复着以前的事情。。 我们笑了。。
重复了很多次。。 我都懂她要说什么了。。。
她说。。 外孙们她都很疼。。 现在。。 我们也都疼她。。
比起自己的儿子好。。

看着她。。 心很酸。。
回家却不敢让她知道。。 静悄悄的离开。。
因为。。 她会要我们带她回她家。。 可是。。 我们知道。。 不能。。
家。。 没有人照顾她。。

太婆。。 再见。。
心里说着。。

-------------------------

when people getting older.. is they realy happy with their life?
they hope to live longer?
izit tis is the fate that they will throw by their son and daughther to a place that they are not really belong to and hope to stay..
in reality.. the fact always cruel..
people noe they are not suppose to do it.. but.. at the end.. thy did it..
may b im the one?? i duno..

i hope my life will not last so long.. at least..
i wont b with the sadness everday.. try to strike for life.. and finally get ntg..
tat's the life...


[end]

二零零九。。

二零零八就这样过去了。。
新的一年。。 会把去年的不愉快都给冲淡吗？？

零八年。。 是值得纪念的年份。。
一个小而温软的家庭。。 不知不觉形成了。。
互相鼓励。。 上学。。 玩笑。。 通宵。。
我永远不会忘。。
考试。。 辛苦。。 然而回想起来。。 脸是笑的。。
分离。。不舍得心情。。祝福着他一切顺利。。
得空欢迎回来我们的小家庭。。
玲。。 雁。。 烙。。 萍。。
特别感谢你们的支持。。 陪我度过最难的时候。。

还有圆。。 凯。。 xy。。
没有你们的陪伴。。 我真的不知会做出什么傻事。。。



[朋友]


病魔把她给带走了。。。。。。。。。。。。。。
是不公平的。。 眼睁睁的看着。。
责怪自己。。 帮不上什么忙。。
医院。。 来回了两年。。 她怕寂寞。。
我陪她。。 在医院睡觉的日子。。
真得很冷。。 很冷。。
我卷在一旁。。 睡着了。。 像是没睡。。
我讨厌。。 厌倦医院来回的日子。。
我很疲惫。。 但。。 她也不好受。。
我帮她拍拍身子。。 擦擦脸蛋。。 喂她吃。。
就像小时候。。 她也会帮我做的事情。。

病情恶化了。。 我还不相信。。
她走不动了。。靠氧气机呼吸。。 我都还不相信。。
直到医生亲口对我说。。 我才相信。。 她是时候脱离这世上的一切痛苦了。。
我哭了。。 姑姑抱着我。。向我解析着。。
我走到洗手间。。 拭去眼泪。。 我要坚强。。
不能让她看到我哭。。我告诉自己。。
我用红了的眼睛望望她。。
我懂。。 她懂。。 大家都懂。。
她。。 不会想再受苦了。。。

回家了。。
我拿着医生给的仪器。。 犹豫着。。。。
我知道。。 我按了。。 就能减轻她的痛。。
但。。
她会更快的离我而去。。

她真得很辛苦。。 她撑不下去了。。 她很痛。。
她想走。。。。。
她要我按。。
每按一次。。 心痛一百次。。
我真得很矛盾。。 我真得很不想按。。可是。。 却又不忍心看她痛苦。。

最后的第二天。。。
凌成了。。
我还记得。。 她要我帮她拍拍背。。
已经完全没有力的她。。 身子显得特别重。。
我吃力的扶起了她。。让她靠在我肩膀。。
我抱着她。。 拍拍她的背。。
她也抱着了我。。紧紧地。。 她没有放开。。很温暖。。
虽然不说。。 但我知道。。 她最不舍。。 最最放不下。。 是我。。
我忍住眼泪。。 脸带微笑。。
我让她躺着。。 对她说。。 [‘我会好好照顾自己。。也会照顾爸爸。。你想走就走吧。。 不用担心。。]
她点了点头。。 睡着了。。

最后的一天。。
他完全失去意识。。 只是早上我喂了她一口小水。。
大家都在为她念弗经。。听说人走前心里念着阿密托弗。。 就能上西天。。
念了一夜。。
我到她耳边说。。 妈。。 把眼睛关上休息吧。。
她半睁的眼睛。。就睁了一整天未曾盖上。。 我不懂她听见了没。。 看见我没。。
因为。。 她真的没反应了。。
就在不久。。 她眼睛动了动。。 用力的呼吸了几回。。。。。
眼睛就闭上了。。 跟着得是。。 她的一行。。 也是最后的一行。。 眼泪。。

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抱着妈妈的骨灰。。 就像之前抱她的感觉一样。。 温暖的。。
我用心灵向她说话。。 觉得。。 她就在我身旁。。一直跟着我。。
洒到大海里。。
妈。。 真真正正的脱离世间的一切了。。。
伤心。。 痛苦。。都结束了。。

写着写着。。 眼泪又不知不觉的掉了下来。。
我还能撑多久呢？ 坚强多久呢？？？？

[ 妈 ]



两年了。。一切随缘吧。。。
谢谢你常容乃我的任性。。 我不乖。。 你却疼爱着。。
我的野蛮。。 你体谅着。。
我重视自由。。 常忽略你的感受。。 请给我时间。。。
好吗？？？

[爱情]


零八尾声遇到了你。。
不开心的事情时常有。。 有时候放下自己的坚强。。
未必不是一件好事。。 至少对我。。
谢你的信任。。永远不离开。。
约定好咯。。

[弟]



零九年。。 我期待着。。 快乐。。


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